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today is just not a very good day for me... physically and emotionally!
i am not very good in expressing myself when i confront things that I don't like...
it happens for many times and this thing just keep repeating and poping out once a while... no ending... for instance... today i told XX what happen these, i expect XX to side me and even if XX don't side me, at least XX will be patiently listen to what i want to say... well, we can't control or change anything that's already happen, i don't see any good in telling off people when you can't do anything to help!

it is very dissapointing for the fact that someone you care don't understand you; and it is heartbroken when someone you care question you.

may be i am sensetive, may be i need a rest, may be my hormon inbalance, may be i am exaggregate, may be i over re-act, may be my state of heart is not stable, may be.... so many may be.. and i try so hard to comfort myself the whole afternoon... but i just feel like letting it go and cry out loud...

i don't understand... why do i have to work so hard and live like that...

perhaps the saying is right "you have done your best but you haven't achieve the ultimate"

i feel so tiny, little, weak & narrow ..... ... .. .. ... this is not me